I Googled My Cookware at 2 AM

It started with wanting to eat cleaner. Then I was reading ingredient labels. Then I was questioning my pans. At 2 AM, I found myself deep in research about metal leaching into food. Chromium. Nickel. Iron levels. I calculated percentages like I used to calculate calories. I'd already controlled every gram of food that entered my body. Now I needed to control what touched it first. The irony wasn't lost on me. I was so afraid of my body absorbing anything unplanned that I'd made cooking—something that used to bring me joy—another minefield to navigate. My stainless steel pans sat in the cabinet, suddenly suspicious. Even my cookware needed to be perfect now. When did keeping myself safe become keeping myself small? #FoodAnxiety #ControlIsExhausting #PerfectionTrap #Health #Diet