I Tracked Every Bite, But Still Felt Lost

Dinner is tofu and greens again. I tell myself it’s for my health—hot flushes, weight, the future. But really, it’s about control. I read the study, memorized the numbers: 92% fewer hot flushes, 3.6kg lost. I thought if I followed every rule, I’d finally feel okay in my skin. But every meal is a negotiation. Did I eat too much? Did I pick the right soy? The scale says I’m doing well, but the mirror doesn’t care. I keep hoping the next meal will make me feel different. It never does. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever eat without thinking about it. #Health #Diet #FoodGuilt