I Feared My Food Was Killing Me

I read the study at 2 AM. High-heat cooking damages DNA. Cancer risk. I screenshot everything. By morning, I'd thrown out my air fryer. No more roasting, grilling, frying. Everything had to be boiled or steamed. Perfect temperatures. Perfect control. I carried a thermometer to restaurants. Asked how they cooked everything. Friends stopped inviting me places. My kitchen became a laboratory. I measured, timed, documented every meal. I was saving my life, I told myself. Protecting my DNA. But I was exhausted. Standing over pots of boiling vegetables, watching steam rise, I realized I wasn't afraid of cancer anymore. I was afraid of living. Of tasting. Of being human enough to just... eat. The food was safe. I wasn't. #FoodAnxiety #ControlIsExhausting #HealthObsession #Health #Diet