Why I Drank Lemon Water and Still Felt Broken

Every morning, I’d squeeze half a lemon into warm water, convinced it would make me clean on the inside. I read somewhere it would help my kidneys, flush out the bad stuff. I believed if I did everything right—if I ate the watermelon, skipped the sweetened cranberry juice, measured out the apple cider vinegar—my body would finally feel like it belonged to me. But the truth is, I never trusted my own signals. I was more afraid of the number on the scale than I was of kidney stones. I watched my reflection while I drank, hoping for proof that I was fixing something, but the mirror never changed. Sometimes, the ritual felt like control. Other times, it felt like punishment. Even now, I wonder if I’m healing or just hiding behind another routine. #Health #Diet #FoodGuilt