Why I Counted Every Walnut

I used to read articles about how a handful of walnuts could save your life. I’d measure out exactly seven, lining them up on a napkin, pretending it was about health. But it was never just about the walnuts. It was about control—about believing that if I got this right, maybe my body would finally listen. Maybe the fear would quiet down. Every day, I’d check the scale, then check the mirror, then check the snack. The numbers never told me if I was safe. I told myself I was being careful, but really, I was just scared—of getting sick, of gaining weight, of never feeling okay in my own skin. #Health #Diet #FoodGuilt