Why I Ate Walnuts Instead of Dinner

It’s 8:47 p.m. I’m standing in the kitchen, staring at the fridge. I know what the articles say—walnuts, olive oil, berries, all the right foods to keep my heart safe. I eat them because I’m supposed to. Because I want to be healthy. Because I’m scared not to. But sometimes, I swap dinner for a handful of walnuts and call it discipline. I tell myself it’s about my arteries, but really, it’s about the number I’ll see tomorrow. I read about fiber and omega-3s, but I still check my reflection in the microwave door, searching for proof that I’m doing enough. I wish I could eat without thinking about it. I wish I believed food could fix more than just my cholesterol. #Health #Diet #FoodGuilt