I Study Patterns. I Am The Chaos

I read about life's hidden rule today—how everything radiates from core areas, spreads outward in predictable patterns. Every bioregion follows the same design, no matter how different the environment. I've been staring at this paper for an hour, thinking about my own patterns. Seven years in this lab. Three failed projects. Two advisor changes. One breakdown in the supply closet. Life finds its optimal conditions and radiates outward. I'm still looking for mine. The research says small areas play disproportionate roles in sustaining biodiversity. Maybe that's what I am—not the thriving core, but one of those small, essential pieces holding something together in ways I can't see yet. I used to think I was broken because I didn't follow the standard academic trajectory. Tonight, reading about life's hidden rules, I wonder if I'm just radiating differently. 🧬 #LabLife #ImposterInTheRoom #ScienceFatigue #Science