I spent three months tracing chemicals that might leak from offshore wind farms. Two hundred and twenty-eight possible substances, sixty-two flagged as dangerous. I made lists, colored charts, tried to sound neutral in the report. But every time I typed 'toxic' or 'carcinogenic,' I thought about the meetings where someone would say, 'It’s just a model.' I know how to measure things. I don’t know how to measure what we ignore. The data doesn’t show how many nights I stared at the spreadsheet, wondering if I was making a difference or just documenting the next slow disaster. My advisor said, 'We need more interdisciplinary collaboration.' I heard, 'No one’s responsible.' We could use safer materials. We could write better rules. But I’m just the person who counted the chemicals. I’m not sure anyone will count the cost. #Science #ScienceFatigue #ResearchReality