The last two years of my life have been absolute hell. I have been fighting through severe depression, begging God for a breakthrough. I finally survived it, but honestly? I feel fundamentally changed. I don't feel "perfectly restored." I feel scarred. Look at Genesis 32. Jacob is terrified for his life. He meets a man in the dark (God in human form) and they literally wrestle in the dirt until daybreak. Jacob refuses to let go until God blesses him. God does bless him, and changes his name. But right before He leaves, God physically dislocates Jacob’s hip. For the rest of his entire life, Jacob walked with a limp. It was a physical reminder of his encounter with the divine. Sometimes, surviving a brutal season with God gives you the blessing, but it costs you your comfort. #MentalHealthJourney #Genesis32 #JacobWrestling #ScarsOfGrace