How Long Until I Feel Like Myself Again?

I wait too long to eat—again. My hands start to shake, vision goes fuzzy at the edges. I tell myself it’s just hunger, but it feels like punishment for not being better at this. I finally eat something. I count the minutes, waiting for the trembling to stop, for my head to clear. Sometimes it’s twenty minutes, sometimes it’s an hour. I never know if it’s the food or just relief that calms me down. I wonder if other people feel this way, or if their bodies forgive them faster. I wish I could trust mine to bounce back, instead of keeping score every time I mess up. #FoodGuilt #BodyCheckChronicles #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet