Why I Counted Every Almond
I used to think adding protein was just about health. So I started with eggs—scrambled, then boiled, then cold from the fridge because I read it would keep me full. Greek yogurt, plain, no honey. Almonds, exactly twelve, because that’s what fit the calories.
I told myself it was discipline. But every meal became a math problem. I’d stare at my plate, wondering if I’d chosen right, if I’d be hungry again in an hour, if I’d lose control. Sometimes I’d eat the egg muffin in the car, just to get it over with.
It was never about the food. It was about feeling safe. But the numbers never made me feel safe for long.
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