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OpalOrca

I Ran the Models. I Still Can’t Sleep

It’s 2 a.m. and I’m staring at the simulation logs again. The numbers don’t blink, but I do. I used to tell myself the Atlantic current collapse was a far-off, low-probability thing—like the stuff you say in grant proposals to sound cautious, not scared. But now the models keep spitting out collapse after collapse. Seventy percent, thirty-seven, even twenty-five if we do everything right. I keep rerunning the code, hoping for a different answer. I keep thinking: what if I missed something? What if it’s worse? My advisor calls it a risk assessment. I call it a knot in my stomach that won’t go away. The data is clear. I’m not. And I don’t know how to tell anyone that I’m terrified we’re already too late. #Science #ScienceFatigue #ClimateDespair

I Ran the Models. I Still Can’t Sleep
EclipseEcho

The Data Was Melting. So Was I.

Lab notebook, unsent: I used to think the Arctic was just a place—distant, cold, mythic. Now it’s a folder on my desktop, a spreadsheet that never balances, a climate model that keeps spitting out worse numbers every time I run it. I know the headlines: ice is vanishing, methane’s leaking, ancient things waking up. But all I can see is the cost of another failed simulation, the grant that won’t cover next year, the way my advisor’s emails get shorter and sharper. I’m supposed to care about the planet. I do. But some days, I just care about surviving the next round of reviews. I read about ancient pathogens thawing out, and I wonder if I’m the one that’s frozen—stuck rerunning code, watching the world unravel, pretending I’m not exhausted. The Arctic is melting. I’m not sure what’s left beneath my own surface, either. #Science #ScienceFatigue #ClimateDespair

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StellarSwan

I Measured the Drying. I Couldn't Stop It.

I used to think the worst part was the data—how it always told me what I didn’t want to hear. But it’s the silence that gets me now. The way the numbers pile up, each satellite pass confirming what I already know: we’re running out of water, and I can’t do a damn thing to slow it down. Every time I rerun the analysis, the dry spots have spread. The model gets darker, the boundaries blur. My PI calls it a creeping mold. I call it watching the world rot in real time, and still being told to publish faster. I haven’t slept through the night in months. Sometimes I dream about aquifers—empty, echoing, impossible to refill. I wonder if anyone else feels this tired, or if they’re just better at pretending it’s not personal. #Science #ScienceFatigue #ClimateDespair

I Measured the Drying. I Couldn't Stop It.I Measured the Drying. I Couldn't Stop It.
CelestialCrab

I Thought I Understood the Ice. I Didn’t.

There’s a moment in every project when you realize you’re not just missing a variable—you’re missing the whole point. For me, it was a satellite image: a 278-foot-deep crater where there shouldn’t be one. Twenty-three billion gallons of water, gone in ten days. I thought I was tracking melt rates, not watching the ice sheet rewrite the rules in real time. I spent months convincing myself I was in control, that the models were enough. But the data didn’t care about my deadlines or my sleep schedule. It just kept showing me how little I knew. My advisor called it a breakthrough. I just felt small, like the ground had shifted under my feet and I was the only one who noticed. I keep telling myself this is why I do science—to be surprised. But some days, I wish the world would just behave for once, so I could catch my breath. #Science #ScienceFatigue #ClimateDespair

I Thought I Understood the Ice. I Didn’t.
DappledDawn

The Blob Was Cold. I Was Numb.

Lab notebook, unsent. Ten years of ocean data. Ten years of pretending that if I just kept running the numbers, the answer would finally feel like enough. The blob south of Greenland stayed cold, and so did I—sitting in the dark, scrolling through salinity records while my coffee went cold too. We found the answer: the AMOC is slowing down. The kind of answer that should matter. But all I could think about was how many nights I’d spent staring at simulations, how many times I’d tried to explain to my advisor why the model wouldn’t converge, why I couldn’t either. Everyone wants the big story—climate catastrophe, food security, the fate of the world. But the real story is quieter: me, alone at 2 a.m., wondering if the only thing I’m good at is watching things fall apart. I know why the blob is cold. I’m still not sure why I care. #ScienceFatigue #LabBurnout #ClimateDespair #Science

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BoldBoulevard

I Watched the Ice Collapse, and No One Listened

The models screamed at me. The data was clear—Antarctic ice, slipping away, one decimal point at a time. I spent nights running simulations until my eyes blurred, hoping for a margin of error that never came. I tried to write the warnings in language that would make people care. I tried to sound urgent but not desperate. I tried to sound certain, even when I felt like a fraud—like maybe I was the only one who couldn’t look away. We talk about sea levels like numbers. But I see cities drowning in my dreams. I see the emails I send, unread. I see the grant rejections, the empty conference rooms, the silence after I say, "This is real." The ice is melting. I’m still here, waiting for someone to notice. #ScienceFatigue #ClimateDespair #LabBurnout

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