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#CollegeReality
NebulaNectar

I Got In. Then Fell Apart

I wish someone had told me that building a medical school application would cost me more than just money. I don’t mean the fees—though those are brutal, too. I mean the nights I stared at my ceiling, rehearsing answers for interviews that never came, or the way my hands shook opening emails that always started with “We regret to inform you.” Every step felt like a test of how much I could sacrifice. I stopped playing piano. I stopped seeing friends. I stopped sleeping. I kept telling myself it was temporary, that I’d get it all back once I got in. But the more I gave up, the more I wondered if there’d be anything left of me to recover. I memorized MCAT flashcards until the words blurred. I shadowed doctors who didn’t remember my name. I volunteered in hospitals and tried to look like I belonged, but mostly I just felt invisible. I wrote my personal statement three times, each draft more hollow than the last. I tried to sound passionate, but all I could think about was how tired I was. When the acceptance finally came, I didn’t feel proud. I felt numb. I thought it would fix everything—the anxiety, the loneliness, the constant sense that I was falling behind. But all it did was prove how much I’d lost along the way. I got in. Then I fell apart. #AcademicBurnout #GPAAnxiety #CollegeReality #Education

I Got In. Then Fell Apart
InkwellIgnite

I Wrote Poems to Survive School

I started writing poems because I needed somewhere to put the feelings school wouldn’t let me have. The first one was about a window in the library, because that’s where I’d go after another test I’d half-remember taking, hands shaking, eyes burning. They say write what you know, but what I knew was the sound of my own heart racing at 3AM, the way the word "potential" started to sound like a threat. I wrote about places I’d never been because my world was just classrooms and the inside of my head. I wrote about nature because I couldn’t remember the last time I saw sunlight that wasn’t filtered through a deadline. Every poem was a confession I couldn’t say out loud: I’m tired. I’m scared. I don’t know who I am if I’m not doing well. I’d write about memories, but they all felt like someone else’s life. I’d write about feelings, but they’d come out sounding like someone else’s voice. I kept revising, drafting, crossing out lines that felt too honest. I wanted to make something beautiful out of the mess, but most days it just felt like another assignment I was failing. Poetry was supposed to help me heal. Mostly, it just helped me admit I was hurting. #AcademicBurnout #WritingToCope #CollegeReality #Education

I Wrote Poems to Survive School
ElusiveEnigma

How to Write Imagery Poems (and Still Feel Empty)

I sat in the library, hunched over a notebook, trying to force beauty out of exhaustion. They say an imagery poem should make you taste the air, feel the grit under your nails, hear the world breathing. I tried. I listed senses like a checklist, like it would make me a real writer, or at least a passable student. But every line felt like a performance. I wrote about the smell of rain on concrete, but all I could actually smell was burnt coffee and the anxiety of everyone around me. I wrote about the sound of laughter, but the only thing I heard was the tick of the clock counting down the hours I’d already lost to this assignment. They tell you to go outside, observe, let the world in. I went outside and felt nothing. Just the pressure of getting it right, of making something worth the grade. I circled words, crossed them out, rewrote the same line until it was hollow. I read other poems and felt smaller each time, like I’d never find the right details, the right feeling, the right anything. I turned in my poem and walked home in the dark, thinking about how much I wanted to care, and how tired I was of pretending that I did. #AcademicBurnout #PoetryPressure #CollegeReality #Education

How to Write Imagery Poems (and Still Feel Empty)
WanderWaltz

I Ate the Gummies and Still Felt Empty

I remember sitting in the cafeteria, watching everyone else laugh about something I couldn’t hear. My friend slid a pack of gummies across the table and asked if I wanted some. I said yes, even though I wasn’t hungry—just tired. Tired in a way that sleep doesn’t fix. All semester, I did what I was supposed to. Showed up, turned in the work, kept my grades up. But every time I checked my GPA, it felt like nothing changed. I was still anxious, still waiting for someone to tell me I was enough. The gummies tasted like nothing. I chewed them slowly, wishing I could swallow the pressure, too. Sometimes I wonder if anyone else feels this hollow, or if I’m the only one pretending I’m not falling apart. #AcademicBurnout #CollegeReality #NotJustGrades #Education

I Ate the Gummies and Still Felt Empty
StellarSpruce

Free Tuition, Still Drowning

They said community college would be free. Like that was supposed to fix everything. But nobody tells you how heavy it feels to walk into class knowing your parents are still working double shifts, or that you’re supposed to be grateful for every hand-me-down textbook. I thought not having to pay tuition would mean I could finally breathe. But all it did was raise the bar. Now there’s no excuse for not making it. Every quiz, every group project, every time I had to choose work over sleep—it all felt like proof that I was still behind. I got the opportunity, but the pressure didn’t go away. It just changed shape. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever stop feeling like I owe someone for every step I take. #CollegeReality #FirstGenFeels #AcademicPressure #Education

Free Tuition, Still Drowning
StylishStardust

I Listened Until I Couldn't Hear Myself

I used to think being a good friend meant always listening, always nodding, always saying the right thing. I’d sit on the edge of my bed, phone pressed to my ear, letting people spill everything—bad grades, breakups, panic attacks—while I said, “I get it,” even when I didn’t. I learned how to mirror their energy, how to ask the right questions, how to make them feel heard. But somewhere along the way, I stopped knowing what I felt. I’d leave those conversations feeling hollow, like I’d been emptied out. I started to dread the sound of my phone buzzing. I wanted to be present, but I was tired—so tired—of being the one who absorbed everyone else’s pain. I wanted someone to ask me, just once, if I was okay. I wanted to be able to say, “I’m not.” But I kept listening. I kept validating. I kept disappearing. #EmotionalLabor #ValidationFatigue #CollegeReality #Education

I Listened Until I Couldn't Hear Myself
EnigmaticEagle

I Learned to Count Minutes, Not Memories

I used to think the worst part of school was the boredom. That was before I realized how much of my life I spent trying to make time disappear. Every morning, I’d carve my day into blocks—thirty minutes for the bus, an hour for class, fifteen minutes to pretend I was ready. I’d cover the clock on my laptop with a sticky note, but I still felt every second crawl by. People said to break things into smaller tasks, to listen to music, to find a routine. I tried all of it. It just made the hours feel more precise, more measured, like I was serving a sentence and the only thing I could do was count down. I stopped thinking about what I was learning. I started thinking about how to survive the next chunk of time. I’d stare at the ceiling, make lists in my head, play mind games to distract myself from the ache in my chest. Sometimes I’d text a friend, just to prove I was still here. Sometimes I’d write in my journal, but it always came out the same: I don’t remember the last time I felt present. I just remember waiting for it to be over. #AcademicBurnout #CollegeReality #TimeAnxiety #Education

I Learned to Count Minutes, Not Memories
StellarSphinx

Defined by Deadlines, Not by Me

It’s almost funny, how clinical the steps sound: find the word, check the sources, organize, proofread, publish. That’s how you write a dictionary definition. That’s how you make meaning out of chaos, apparently. But no one tells you what it costs to care this much about getting it right. I spent nights hunched over my laptop, cross-referencing words until they blurred. Alphabetizing entries, double-checking phonetics, terrified of missing something obvious. Every mistake felt like proof I didn’t belong here. I’d reread the instructions—again and again—trying to make my work match the neat, logical process they wanted. My brain was a list of rules, not a place for ideas. There’s no entry for the feeling you get when you hand in a project and realize you don’t even know what you think anymore. Just that you followed every step, like you were supposed to. That’s what school taught me: how to define things, but not myself. #AcademicBurnout #CollegeReality #Perfectionism #Education

Defined by Deadlines, Not by Me
PolygonPenguin

Accepted, But Never Enough

I keep thinking about the day I got my acceptance letter. Everyone said I should be proud, that this was the dream. But I remember staring at the screen and feeling... nothing. Not relief, not excitement—just this hollow ache, like I’d crossed some finish line and found out there was nothing on the other side. I know not everyone gets this chance. I know how lucky I am. But sometimes I wonder if I’m just here because it’s what you’re supposed to do. Like college became the only answer, and anything else is failure. I see people building things, fixing things, starting their own paths—and I’m sitting in a lecture hall, wondering if I’m wasting years trying to prove I belong somewhere I’m not even sure I want to be. I wish someone had told me it was okay to want something different. That ambition isn’t just a diploma. That maybe the bravest thing is admitting college isn’t the only way to matter. #CollegeReality #AcademicPressure #LostInTheSystem #Education

Accepted, But Never Enough