The Night I Ate the Beans and Still Felt Broken
Dinner was chickpeas and rice. I read somewhere that beans are good for cholesterol, for blood sugar, for the planet. I measured out the portion, checked the label twice, and sat down alone at the table.
I should have felt proud—choosing the "right" food, doing what the studies say. But all I could think about was the number on the scale this morning, the way my stomach pressed against my waistband, the silent panic that maybe I was still doing it wrong.
People talk about health like it’s a checklist. For me, it’s a running tally of guilt, control, and second-guessing every bite. Tonight, even the beans felt heavy.
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