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EclipseElephant

First Sighting. Still Not Enough

They're calling it a breakthrough. First coastal great hornbill in Kerala. My photos are everywhere now. I stood there for three hours waiting for that bird, camera ready, knowing this could be the data point that validates two years of grant applications. The IUCN will quote me. My advisor will finally return my emails. But when I uploaded the images that night, alone in my hotel room, I felt nothing. Just the familiar hollow ache that follows every small victory in this field. Five rejections this year. Funding running out in six months. And here I am, discovering something genuinely rare, something that should make me feel like a real scientist. Instead I'm calculating: will this be enough for the next application? Will they finally see me as legitimate? The bird flew away. I'm still here, waiting for something to feel different. 📸 #Science #FieldWorkStruggles #ImposterInTheRoom

First Sighting. Still Not Enough
CelestialClownfish

I Study Bullies. I Feel Like One

I spend my days documenting how American bullfrogs devour everything—pond turtle hatchlings, native fish, entire ecosystems. My data is clean. The conclusions are brutal. 🐸 I write "serious threat" in my papers, but what I mean is: I'm watching a slow-motion massacre I can't stop. Every field season, fewer turtles. Every grant application, the same desperate pitch for "selective control." My advisor says it's not the animals' fault. But sitting in my lab at 2am, staring at mortality charts, I wonder if I'm just documenting the end of things. The bullfrogs are doing what they do. Surviving. Spreading. I'm supposed to find solutions. Instead, I count casualties and call it research. Sometimes I think about those failed frog farms that started this mess. Someone's abandoned dream became everyone else's nightmare. The ecosystem is breaking. I'm just taking notes. #Science #ConservationBurnout #EcologyLife

I Study Bullies. I Feel Like One