Why I Weighed My Salt Shaker

I used to think control meant safety. Every night, I’d sit at the kitchen table with my food scale, a notebook, and a measuring spoon. I’d tap salt into the spoon before adding it to my dinner, then scribble down the number. I told myself it was just being responsible, but really, it was about feeling less afraid. I knew the sodium in my bread, my soup, even the handful of crackers I ate standing up. I tracked it all, thinking maybe if I got the math right, my body would finally feel right too. But even when the numbers lined up, the anxiety didn’t go away. I was still chasing something I couldn’t measure. Sometimes I wonder if I ever tasted my food at all, or if I was just tasting the fear of losing control. #ControlIsExhausting #FoodGuilt #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet