I Ate Ajwain Leaves for Control, Not Health

I read somewhere that ajwain leaves were good for digestion, so I started adding them to everything. Omelets, tea, even plain water. It felt like a secret weapon—something I could control when everything else felt slippery. But the truth is, I wasn’t chasing health. I was chasing a sense of order. If I ate the right things, maybe I’d finally feel okay in my own skin. Maybe the guilt after every meal would fade. Most days, it didn’t. The leaves tasted sharp, almost medicinal. I kept chewing, hoping the next bite would fix something I couldn’t name. #FoodGuilt #ControlIsExhausting #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet