When Food Became Numbers, Not Nourishment

There was a week I lived on protein shakes and vitamins. I told myself it was practical—my appetite was gone, and the thought of real food made my stomach turn. I counted grams, calories, and pills, convinced this was what control looked like. I watched the scale drop, but my mind never quieted. I still scanned every reflection, searching for proof that I was doing enough. Hunger felt less like a signal and more like a failure. No one talks about how lonely it is, measuring your worth in numbers and swallowing guilt with every sip. I wanted to be healthy. I ended up feeling hollow. #FoodGuilt #ControlIsExhausting #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet