When Clean Still Feels Dirty

There’s a moment, every summer, when I realize I’m about to shower for the third time before noon. I scrub, I pat dry, I try every powder and spray. Still, I catch a whiff—onions, sweat, something animal. It’s like my body keeps leaking out the parts I wish I could hide. I know it’s just sweat. I know it’s normal. But I still check, still worry, still wonder if anyone else can smell it. The shame isn’t just in the scent—it’s in the fear that no matter how hard I try, I’ll never feel clean enough. Some days, I wish I could just unzip my skin and step out, leave the mess behind. But I’m still here, counting showers, hoping no one notices. #BodyCheckChronicles #ControlIsExhausting #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet