I used to carry a pill organizer like it was proof I cared about my health. Green powder capsules, vegetable blends, fiber supplements. Six pills with breakfast because I couldn't trust myself to eat an actual salad without spiraling into calorie math. It felt safer than vegetables. Pills don't have texture I could obsess over. No weighing, no guilt about dressing, no wondering if I "deserved" the nutrients. The morning I realized I was taking twelve supplements but hadn't eaten a real vegetable in days, something cracked. I wasn't supplementing my diet. I was replacing it with the illusion of control. My therapist asked what I was really trying to swallow. Turns out it wasn't vitamins. Now I eat messy salads with too much dressing. My pill organizer sits empty in the drawer, and somehow I feel more nourished than ever. #FoodGuilt #ControlIsExhausting #SupplementShame #Health #Diet