I Counted Caffeine Like Calories

I used to research energy drinks like I was writing a dissertation. Screenshots of ingredient lists. Calculating caffeine per ounce. Cross-referencing with my fitness tracker. It wasn't about being healthy. It was about being perfect. I'd stand in the convenience store for twenty minutes, reading labels. Too much sugar meant failure. Too little caffeine meant I wasn't optimizing. I switched to green tea, then matcha, then just water with lemon because even tea felt like cheating. My friends grabbed whatever. I had spreadsheets. The funny part? I was exhausted anyway. All that energy spent controlling what gave me energy. I thought if I could just find the perfect drink, the perfect fuel, I'd finally feel okay in my body. Now I drink coffee when I want coffee. Sometimes it's not organic. The world hasn't ended. #ControlIsExhausting #FoodGuilt #MaintenanceMode #Health #Diet