Why I Still Count Every Grain

Dinner tonight: a scoop of purple rice, measured out with the same care I used for white rice when I was trying to be 'good.' I know the numbers, the fiber, the antioxidants—I've read all the threads, memorized the charts. But I still feel the same anxiety as before. The color is different, but the ritual is the same: rinse, portion, check, double-check. I tell myself it’s healthier, but I’m still chasing control, still bargaining with the scale in my head. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever just eat rice without thinking about what it means for tomorrow. #FoodGuilt #ControlIsExhausting #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet