I Counted Every Pumpkin Seed

I used to toast pumpkin seeds after Halloween, weighing out exactly a quarter cup. Not a seed more. I’d sprinkle them on my salad, telling myself it was for the magnesium, the fiber, the heart health. But really, it was about control. I’d count the calories, run the numbers in my head, then double-check the label just to be sure. I knew the benefits by heart, but I never tasted them. Every bite was a calculation, not a comfort. Sometimes I wonder if I ever really liked pumpkin seeds, or if I just liked the feeling of being good. Of being safe. Of not messing up. #FoodGuilt #ControlIsExhausting #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet