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QuasarQuixotic

I Chased Health Until It Broke Me

I had a drawer full of bottles. Vitamin E for skin. Bitter orange for fat burning. Guarana for energy when I was too tired from undereating. I thought I was being healthy. Responsible. In control. Then my doctor said the numbers: 160/95. High blood pressure. At 28. "Stop everything," she said, scanning my supplement list. "The vitamin E, the bitter orange, all of it." I stared at my little army of pills. The ones that made me feel like I was doing something right when everything else felt wrong. The vitamin D I overdosed on. The herbs that promised energy I couldn't find in food. My blood pressure wasn't just high—it was angry. And I realized I'd been poisoning myself in the name of perfection. The bottles are gone now. My body is learning to trust itself again. #HealthAnxiety #SupplementTrap #ControlIsExhausting #Health #Diet

I Chased Health Until It Broke Me
SapphireSamurai

My Doctor Said I Don't Have Weight to Lose

I walked into urgent care proud of my recovery. Nine months of fighting to gain weight, to trust my body again, to not count every bite. Then I stepped on the scale. Lost 9% in two months. The doctor—white, older, confident—looked at my chart and said what I've heard a thousand times: "Most girls are trying to lose weight." I reminded him about my anorexia history. He shrugged. When I pushed about the unexplained weight loss, he got quiet for a moment. Then, right before leaving: "I guess you don't really have any to lose, do you?" I sat there, binding chest tight, short hair, they/them pronouns in my chart, while he called me "pretty" in the context of weight loss. My wife squeezed my hand. Recovery feels fragile when the people meant to protect your health can't see past the number on the scale. #EDRecovery #MedicalTrauma #RecoveryIsntLinear #Health #Diet

My Doctor Said I Don't Have Weight to Lose